Its been a couple weeks.

I hope you didn't miss me too much. I felt the inexplicable pain of separation from your gaze, so here I am, begging for more. What? I can't say that I have been all that particularly busy in the past couple weeks, but sometimes one thing leads to another and I haven't been posting. Oh well. So on my lovely day off, I'm comin' at you live from good ol' Japan. For how long, who knows? I can update any readers interested in my current arrangements in: the next paragraph!

Big news! I'm certifiably eligible! What the hell does that mean? Basically its just the first step of many that is very important when applying for a visa. Since mine is a student visa there needed to be collaboration with the school and other parties involved. Now that I have that fancy piece of bureaucratic wastepaper, I am all set to go talk with the immigration folk, which will hopefully set up my move, applying for the visa itself. Now this is tricky, because I am already somewhat of a legal alien here, and I'm applying to upgrade my status from inside the county. Whether or not that will be possible at all is unclear to me, hence my looking forward to a meeting with the staff at the immigration office. I see there being three possible outcomes for me, I'll list them from most favorable to least in terms of future careers and current financial/personal effect: 1. Everything goes better than expected. In other words, I stay here, get my visa, study, work, play, and live. 2. I gotta go home to apply for the visa. This is good news too, I'd get a chance to see all you American friends one more time before I'm off to Japan for who knows how long. 3. They decide that I'm a worthless sack of human goop and ship my ass back to America. I am not sure why they would do that, since I'm already eligible, but I have heard of stranger things happening here in Japan.

So that's where I'm at, kinda stressful to be honest. Classes are supposed to start in less than a month, so within the next couple weeks I could be back stateside for an unknown amount of time. Don't hold your breath though. I feel as if I have sunken to the level of presidential campaign promises in terms of my reliability, at least on this matter for sure.

What is on the menu today? I have something that I wrote not too long ago. That time I was inundated with inspiration, and in my struggle to comprehend complete human interaction I popped out this little diddle. I hope you enjoy it, its all about you.

I hope there is still room in there for me

What I have is unwavering, creative and unconditional

I inundate others too easily with my passion

Resulting struggles led me to attempt to trickle

My inexperience is obvious, I under-apply or over-correct

but I haven't given up, perfection always takes time

what is right and good is always resisted by nature

if only to prove to yourself that you want it

desires receive little patience in my mind

abandoned for the sake of sanity or purity

all that comes from this is irony, for I am neither

the more this realization becomes apparent

the more I realize that I want to be with you

This seems to me to be self explanatory, but I wrote it, so what I really think is not only clouded by my own hindsight, but also, as every high school English teacher will tell you, its not about what the author actually means, but about as many different meanings you can get out of it as possible. 

Anyways, check out my other posts, I'll be adding more soon.

Videos, you love to watch them, I know you do

That's right folks, here they are, some videos for you. First, two of my favorite videos from the web. They are part of a video series from "What the Bleep Do We Know?" which talks in depth about quantum theory. Of course its a few years old, and full of a lot of spiritual speculation, however I enjoyed watching it thoroughly, and this cartoony super hero scientist man is really entertaining. The concepts he talks about are not easy to grasp, but its explained in such a way that just about anyone can get it.

This first one shows what its like for someone looking "down" at us from a different dimension, but it puts it in the most logical way possible for us to relate. So we take on the view of a three dimensional being, observing a 2 dimensional world. Watch the video, its pretty self explanatory.

Imagine someone coming to your doorstep and pulling you from everything you thought was true and significant and then realizing that there is so much more that is equally, if not more significant, because its not held down by location or time. If only it were as simple as it sounds. 

Next up is some basic quantum physics stuff. No big deal really, but the last part of the video is my favorite. I even explained these concepts to a younger friend of mine not too long ago, using the same ideas he shares, and she seemed to understand, even though math isn't her strong point.I even explained these concepts to a younger friend of mine not too long ago, using the same ideas he shares, and she seemed to understand, even though math isn't her strong point.

Conscious thought and observation play a much bigger role in the world than most of us realize. I said earlier I'd tie some points back to what I had said about new year resolutions. Well this is it, part of it at least. Perception is a key driving force in the world. We can change our perceptions to see the world in a different light, and so it will become that.

Next up is an amazing video of young Japanese schoolchildren. No its not creepy or perverted, unfortunately, but these kids understand more about life and how to make it work than 95% (don't quote me on that percentage) of Americans. Its sad really that they have such a complex knowledge of the world and how it can affect us, but also how we can support each other and rely on our strength to make it better. For those who are tear-bags, you may want to grab a box of tissues.

Kawaii! That's just part 1. I haven't gotten a chance to see the rest of them yet, but I encourage you all to check them out. Also did you notice the date the narrator mentioned? That was almost 10 years ago, these students have all graduated high school now. I will investigate to see if I can find what they are doing with their lives nowadays. Maybe even try to find them while I'm here!

Last one then I'm done for the night. Up 'til 6am is not going to help me be productive tomorrow. This one is about feminism. I have no idea if this lady knows what she is talking about, or if she is just playing intelligent psychologist, but her arguments are logical enough. This video is kinda long so maybe grab some popcorn and relax a bit. Also, not quite the tear-jerker the other one was.

An interesting look at how evolution has trained us to eventually over-populate the planet, due to the very same idea that gives us feminism and chivalry. Well that's all for me everyone! Please comment and let me know what you think of the state of all this so far, any compliments or criticisms are welcome and appreciated. 

2 for Tuesday

I kinda fell off the bandwagon of posting almost every day, which I hope didn't bother anyone, of course it hasn't, unless you are from Russia, which seems to be my highest locale of readership. So to all my Russian friends out there, спасибо! Please comment!

Today I'll give you two things, since it was just Christmas, which is all about spending money and giving things to people, these are for you. I didn't spend money making them, but to be honest I'd like to completely boycott all of these corporate holidays in lieu of just being with the people I care about, which happens to be all of you. Here is my attempt at doing just that, sharing a piece of myself, no matter how dark or deep or strange it seems.

This first one is quite dark, I'll admit. Written from a place of uncertainty and despair I truly needed the inspiration to flow for this one, and it shows as the words progress. The feeling is much different at the end than the beginning.

Death waits for this lowly adversary

eating his soul, turning his physical form into cream and dust

what will be left is nothing but what was there before

before the planet was formed, and cooled to allow us life on its face

as this transformation of the reaction takes place more will take his place

they ignore him, cherish him, think of him

not believing the truth that he is them, and among them

they will suffer his fate, some harshly, quickly

others will go slowly and let time ebb and flow as they lose themselves

their passing will be as unforgettable as the previous

and yet it will be lost forever, maybe marked with a stone that will wether

in a few more generations it will be as indistinguishable as its neighbor

escape the trend, become its forebear,

tap the soul that death holds the monopoly on

its wisdom, knowledge, and experience will guide your life

your purpose will save you and you will live forever in timeless harmony

Sometimes I read what I write and think to myself, what the fuck? How could I possibly have come up with that and how did I know it would be so applicable to my life right now. The truth is I didn't, I wasn't thinking about you or me or the future. The only thing I could see was the paper, or in this case, the screen in front of me. 

Next a shorter bit of text, coming after my writing had been stifled for some time due to new experiences happening externally and a long series of abruptly necessary changes. It was intended to return myself back to the path of inspiration and so it did. In the next week or so I'll be showing some of my works that I came up with not long after all of this came out, I hope you will enjoy them. This is not too exciting, but like I saw, it was merely designed to open a door that I had shut temporarily. 

three green turns to second unfamiliar in the ways

unconfident or just overly patient

maybe just complacent

concerned with what?

myself or my thoughts so irrelevant

so irreverent just let go

smile and make yourself one